Well, after reading this post for the first time in a couple months, I decided to remove it. Either I was living in a fantasy land when I wrote this, or I truly was about to break free from something terrible. I hope it's the former, because I am mostly content now and see it as a very silly post. At the very least, it was immature.
I am leaving this space on the blog, along with the comments, to remind me of whatever it was I was feeling that day. Besides, it's my blog. I can do what I want!
6 comments:
I hope that "goodbye" is intended for the regular life/job that is stealing your essence and not those of us in your life - we would miss contact with you!
Its somewhat of a difficult place to be in when you feel like you will soon be facing a point of no return. I hope you find what it is your meant to do (or maybe you already have) and pursue it will all your passion!
Thinking of you - Amy
when i read this last night, it gave me chills. i have said for a while now how much i envy you and your ability to be so up front and honest, especially in your writings. if i could be as bold as you perhaps i would of wrote something eerily similar. i would sit here and give you more compliments, but i know that you are like me in that compliments just make us both feel worse and more bitter toward ourselves.
perhaps feeling this way is somehow a good thing. you have become more bold and upfront now more then ever. courage is something i lack that you seem to have ample supply of.
perhaps you will become as what i joked about saturday. you and me can live the high life, always being drunk in an apartment with no friends and no cable, just watching static as we build another couch out of pizza boxes. the world would be ours for the taking. side note: lets make sure we move into an apartment within walking distance of an ABC store since we both know we'll lose our liscences by then.
and seriously, what are you doing over good friday weekend?
Trevor,
This is Shaun in Kentucky and I have to agree with Amy in the fact of saying goodbye to regular life and job etc. because you would be missed. But I commend your search for your true "self" or purpose in life. (Just a practical warning in the fact that I am almost 30 yrs old and am still looking so it can take a while.) But I hope for you God shows you your path much sooner. Patience is never easy.
But I have faith that you will seek God in the quest and if you do that you will know that even if you make the wrong decisions sometimes and take the wrong road there is always another road to take thats leads you back in the right direction. Hope you can understand the poor attempt at symbolizism(sp?) Good Luck
Shaun
I am a little late, but this post seems to me to be nothing shy of an obvious place no one else would write or speak of. Try reading "Walden" by Henry David Thoreau-a notable transcendentalist writer who is a very easy read for simple minded people; but something very large to take in for someone who has ever been their own being.
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