Into the Dark

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Into the Dark


We will never be
Be as a complete soul
Soul is dying as we wait
Wait in this night and die cold.

Body will fall asleep
Asleep in the cold air
Air grows too heavy
Heavy as what we must bare.

Giving into this feeling
Feeling like carbon and nothing
Nothing will bring life back
Back into what is something.

Will you be with me then
Then we will see what we are
Are we to become something other
Other than the story so far?

Hear the tune of the end of my time
Time to give up the fighting
Fighting for our piece of hope
Hope will die without us trying.

Hold onto me as we fade to black
Black overwhelms my face
Face the truth of falling forever
Forever we wander in this place.

Over there a man looks into our eyes
Eyes on the one we can trust
Trust my heart as we start to cry
Jesus Christ save us!




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A Place from Earlier Days

I once woke up missing something,
A place that did not exist,
The alarm was like a final ring,
And that thing was held in my fist.


What I held was not of human design,
And I must have been sleeping still,
As I began to see the hints and signs,
That it was more a time or a place, if you will.

Gazing at this world in plain view,
Deep sadness consumed me as I stared,
Every inch of my sleeping body knew,
I could never be there.

In this tiny world,
Yesterday did not happen,
Tomorrow was never to be,
And these people treated today,
As if it would last for all eternity.

As I awoke not sure what I was missing,
I am sure I would have wept,

Only,

I was afraid they were listening.

Change and Loss

Sometimes, it's the little changes that end up costing us the most. And sometimes, every change feels like a loss. Change brings a loss of certainty, just as it gives feelings of uneasiness and even genuine fear.

I lost a coworker yesterday. Not really lost, but lost from one part of my life. I will get used to the new face sitting in the same office as me from eight to five every day. But things will never be the same. The people around us give us meaning. Would I live the life I live now, if I were the only human in existence? Of course not! No one would. So how can we not take seriously the constant change of people who come into our lives, even if into just one segment of our lives, only to be gone the next? The change I experienced this week was not the true loss of a friend. It was the loss of a friend from one segment of my life. It is strange how even that can feel so painful, so real.

Unfortunately, some changes are more serious than this. Some are permanent, never to be undone. So often I have failed to hold onto those I love. So rarely do I consider that every moment spent with someone is an individually numbered, finite moment. Why waste time pondering the faults of those we love, when we have limited moments to experience the wonders of their company? None of us have enough time to wait for the right moment to show someone how much they mean to us. The moment may never come. Even if it does, all of those moments in between are too valuable to discard.

Change is a peculiar thing. It makes us realize that every second we count as just more of the same, is actually the loss of a unique moment which will never happen again.