Sometimes, it's the little changes that end up costing us the most. And sometimes, every change feels like a loss. Change brings a loss of certainty, just as it gives feelings of uneasiness and even genuine fear.
I lost a coworker yesterday. Not really lost, but lost from one part of my life. I will get used to the new face sitting in the same office as me from eight to five every day. But things will never be the same. The people around us give us meaning. Would I live the life I live now, if I were the only human in existence? Of course not! No one would. So how can we not take seriously the constant change of people who come into our lives, even if into just one segment of our lives, only to be gone the next? The change I experienced this week was not the true loss of a friend. It was the loss of a friend from one segment of my life. It is strange how even that can feel so painful, so real.
Unfortunately, some changes are more serious than this. Some are permanent, never to be undone. So often I have failed to hold onto those I love. So rarely do I consider that every moment spent with someone is an individually numbered, finite moment. Why waste time pondering the faults of those we love, when we have limited moments to experience the wonders of their company? None of us have enough time to wait for the right moment to show someone how much they mean to us. The moment may never come. Even if it does, all of those moments in between are too valuable to discard.
Change is a peculiar thing. It makes us realize that every second we count as just more of the same, is actually the loss of a unique moment which will never happen again.
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Great reflections. Thanks for reminding us to revel in every moment with the people we love.
As always, good thoughts Trevor!
I hope getting used to the new face sitting in the same office doesn't prove to be difficult. ..
I'm going to miss being their with you. I'm going to miss bugging you and picking with you. I'm going to miss your emails and you insanly intence questions. I really enjoyed how deep you really are and how much time we did get together. I realised that when you were a lunch or gone for the last 30min it made me sad to be their. I'm going to miss everything the one thing that I want to be sure of is that i don't loose you it toke me 23 years to find a friend like you. Your serously becomeing one of my closest friends I can talk to you about real things and you will listen. I hope that you feel the same way about me. I don't think that I will ever be able to get as close with any other co worker no one will ever be able to understand the bond that I have with you(heck i don't even understand it my self). I really hope that you get what I'm saying and that it doesn't creap you out I'm just typing from the heart and this is just what's coming out that's all.
Hope to see you soon.
Good Luck tomorrow
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